"A risgo de sonar ridiculo dejenme decir, que un revolucionaria(o) es quiado por un gran sentimiento de amor." - Che Guevara

(At the risk of sounding ridiculous let me say, that a revolutionary is guided by great feelings of love.)

Does that mean love is revolutionary?
at what price do we pay
for love
always at risk
vulnerable to pain
bodies and souls
exercise and hope that the theory
of
no pain, no gain
is but a cliché

Love
it changes as we do
with time
and location
even in situation
at the risk of pain

te amo
mahal kita
i love you
words without meaning
said over and over
in the heat of passionate lust
or to secure one's future
obligating ourselves to return the three words was a must
busting our asses to make sure
we lived up to our words
blaming ourselves
for the mistakes afterwards
is i love you
like claiming the revolution is coming?
should we give up love?
should we give up on the revolution?

Love
it changes as we do
with time
and location
even in situation
at the risk of pain

it seems as though I have lost the love
I had for myself
and formed a great fear to love another
sad as it seems
this illness and distress
has found a cure
a feeling so real and pure
from within my own heart
See, I have rediscovered the wonders that I am
and in the love of me I know I can
let you in

Love
it changes as we do
with time
and location
even in situation
at the risk of pain

In
inside
i used to hide behind doors of pride
locked with revolutionary, yet bourgie thoughts
of selfish gain
afraid
frail
vulnerable to fail
fought risks
ditching brisk winds
coming my way
cause I thought I'd need pay
the high price for love
poor and proletariat
workaholic as an excuse
shutting out
mind-fabricated infiltrations by true allies
pretending to despise
love

Love
it changes as we do
with time
and location
even in situation
at the risk of pain

its time
unstructured
uncalculated
its time
to share this revolution of love
with you
I make love
in newborn ways
letting time and location, even situation
create the paths
for pain to be a risk worth taking
at a very small risk of sounding ridiculous
I have found the funds to
pay the price
to say
that my love for you is revolutionary
I mean these words
that are guided by changes
in meanings by feelings
and
this change in power
this change in theory
especially the change in love for myself
has brought me the courage and wealth
to say:
I love you.

Allyson Tintiangco
2-1-97 unrevised

"At the Risk"
Re-re-re-rec. 5/16/97 in olivia's evil white landlord's in-laws studio, sf...1245.
Orig. Rec. 5/15/97 in daddy's sunroom, frmnt. 0110/ un-final cut...0855.